Trying for Baby George Step 1

Trying for Baby George

Step 1 WE finally went back to see a Fertility Doctor in Feb 2018. I had a horrible taste in my mouth after the visit with a Doc in the cities a few years ago and thought I would never go back down this path, but after a heart to heart with my Lady doctor I decided I really really really needed to try one big Horrah before I'm too old to use my own eggs.

We had started down the adoption path, but something was holding me back from finishing the application-this was before any of the home study paperwork, I couldn't even finish the application-what was the hold up? If only I knew the full answer. Something was stopping me and I truly think it is my wild desire to be pregnant. I just keep believing my miracle will happen, but somewhere along the line I started getting older and my eggs are getting older and it was time to see a doctor.

Thankfully, I heard a woman at work talking about the Dr @ Sanford in Fargo and how helpful they were. I don't regularly Doctor at Sanford so I have never been referred there, I kept getting pushed to the cities from my Wadena Doctor. I feel so dumb now, but I didn't even know I could just call them and get an appointment without a Doctor referral. Guess what? YOU CAN. I called and was all set up for our first appt within a few weeks.

I don't know why exactly but I was so nervous for this first appointment. Maybe the finality of it all. if this didn't work, I would never be pregnant. What if they tell me I can't ever be pregnant? What if they say there is more wrong than I ever knew? What if I do get pregnant and it doesn't stick? What if ... all the horrible thoughts!!! What if we spend all our money and take out loans and never get a baby???? I guess bad things can happen but the bigger question is, What if we do get a baby and he/she is everything we ever dreamt of? What if after all these years as auntie & uncle we finally get to be mom & dad? I guess, no matter how many bad things we might find along the way the chance at that one GREAT thing would make it all worth it.